I’m feeling much better now.
And this was not on the list
So I have to be quick.

After suffering through
My most difficult Mother’s Day yet

I’m finally coming to understand
In my middle age
That my adoption
Is essential
To my core being.

It will always be a painful subject
But I could not be the person
I am today
If it had not occurred.

I have essential work to do
In this life

Generational traumas
To heal

On both sides
Of my bloodlines

And both sides
Of my lovelines.

Frankhauser and Bhagaloo
Shilton and Batchelder

There is no more time
For this vision of loss

I’m a weaver
And a poet

Like Janus 
I look backwards and forwards

And in this moment
I connect.